My Dearest Joslyn,
The past month with you has been wonderful. Your colic is starting to fade away, and we are seeing more of your personality shining through. You full on giggled for the first time this month! It was April 11th and when it happened I thought perhaps it may have been a fluke. But I told your dad right away and you followed it up with another which confirmed exactly what I'd heard. Daddy and I were both there to experience it, and it was such an adorable sound. A few days later when you and I were out at the mall with friends Kim and Mackenzie, you'd giggled several times more. You kept showing us how elated you were with the conversation we were having, and it would stop us in mid-sentence every time because we couldn't believe how happy you were. These giggles are especially thrilling for me to see. Because as your mom, it is most important to see that you are a happy, healthy, and well adjusted child. It's through these signs, where I can see that we are definitely on the right track with that. You are a very happy girl, Joslyn.
I love the fact that today, the exact day you turn three months of age, is the day we are also celebrating Mother's Day! You and daddy have made me happier than I ever thought possible, and I am just so excited to celebrate this special day with you for the first time ever! Our plan is to have a special breakfast, perhaps a walk outside, then off to visit your grandmothers, and lastly dinner somewhere fun.
You have always been a great little sleeper for mommy. In the middle of the night, when I've just finished feeding you and you've fallen back to sleep in my arms, I find myself watching you for extended periods of time. I should be placing you back in your crib and going to get some shut-eye myself. But you are just the most beautiful and most precious looking little soul, that I can't help but watch you. Adoring you. My eyes fixated and my heart completely full of love for YOU. It is the one moment in any given day where you exude a sense of peace like no other. And it's utterly eluding of everything else going on in the world at that point in time.
This month we've seen the 3-6 month clothing come out. And we've seen many sleepers and cute little outfits be put away in storage. It's been a very hard thing for me to experience, because I just can't fathom how quickly my little girl is growing before my very eyes. I wish that I could hold you in my arms forever. But I know in what will seem like days, you'll be celebrating your first birthday and I'll be heading back to work. Now more than ever before, days seem to be passing so quickly. And oh how I wish the time would slow down just a little.
We've shared a few new things with you this month. You were a very lucky girl, having had another shower hosted by Grandma R's friend Kerry on the 27th. It was also Mommy's birthday on the 26th, and you helped us celebrate! The three of us went for dinner to The Keg, and you showed us what a little angel you can be, yet again. All experiences at restaurants with you have been pure heaven. You usually sleep, or spend time admiring your new surroundings, perfectly content and sitting quietly in your car seat. With a little help from Daddy, you also gave me a special gift. It was so nice to open a card addressed to "Mommy", for the very first time. To see my new name in writing is just an amazing feeling.
You rolled over, from your back to your front, for the first time on May 2nd and then again on May 6th. We have yet to actually see you do it, because it always happens in your crib when we aren't looking. (You little sneak!) We put you on your back, and on these particular days we came in to find you lying on your tummy. It seems we might see a lot more of these rolling over shenanigans in the upcoming weeks.
A few more things we now know, is that you adore your baths. You have grown to LOVE you automatic swing. Your favorite toy is a Winnie the Pooh fabric book that makes crinkly noises when you touch it. You love to watch the lights and sounds coming from the television (especially hockey, which daddy is ecstatic about by the way). It's NHL playoff season right now, so you especially enjoy sitting in your Bumbo chair watching hockey with daddy. You are constantly on the go. You move about your crib, kicking your feet like crazy, and we always find you in a different position from where we left you. You move yourself from one end of the crib to the other, from one side to the other, and turning yourself completely around. You're a real busy little girl, and I sense we won't be able to slow you down for anything. You want stimulation, excitement, and you tell such animated stories to all who will listen.
We also know how remarkable it is to see our love for you, which already seems so incredibly vast, continue to grow and mature with each passing day. There isn't a single person who could have ever explained such a feeling to me before you came into my life. I am in absolute awe of everything you have become, and of how you've completely changed my life for the better. One day when you are hating me for grounding you or taking your car keys away, please know that everything I do, and everything that I feel, is to raise you to be the best person you can be. I hope that you will always know how much I love you.
Love,
Your Mama Bear
